Do you have the same? I just have gaming buddies that I called 'friends' few years before - but when in real life problems came to me it was only 'we can play', not real help or advise. Then I started to treasure world 'friend'. I now have few gaming buddies and two close female... Here I have problem of naming - they are not proper friends that may help you in every thing - but they can listen to you sometimes. And they can come to the party I make twice a year. Distant friends then?
My partner is not my friend, in platonic way. Maybe I'm just lonely and why I'm oversharing on forum? Last 4 years I spent whole days alone - no real work colleages ( all in company are at least little conservative) , I see my partner only on weekends - and it's not even full weekends, as twice a month he has weekend studies whole days. Rest of time it's only me and my cats in home. From last year it's even harder - I moved outside of my home city and drive car 40 minutes one way, everyday. Now I live in small town, not even gaming club or rec center in it - so nothing to do after returning 'home'. I even like to wait and do over time in work to not be alone in empty home. 😔 When living in city I could at least go to fandom club and talk to other nerds.
I try to run two chronicles on weekends ( the way they would not clash with free time with partner) - to fill loneliness. But I feel all my gaming buddies connections are fake, limited only to 'Karol, you are running the games for us - that's all'. 😟
My partner is not my friend, in platonic way. Maybe I'm just lonely and why I'm oversharing on forum? Last 4 years I spent whole days alone - no real work colleages ( all in company are at least little conservative) , I see my partner only on weekends - and it's not even full weekends, as twice a month he has weekend studies whole days. Rest of time it's only me and my cats in home. From last year it's even harder - I moved outside of my home city and drive car 40 minutes one way, everyday. Now I live in small town, not even gaming club or rec center in it - so nothing to do after returning 'home'. I even like to wait and do over time in work to not be alone in empty home. 😔 When living in city I could at least go to fandom club and talk to other nerds.
I try to run two chronicles on weekends ( the way they would not clash with free time with partner) - to fill loneliness. But I feel all my gaming buddies connections are fake, limited only to 'Karol, you are running the games for us - that's all'. 😟
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